Where you a good child? Did you listen and do what you were told? Will you be remembered by future generations? Will you be honoured with a statue? None of this matters.
What matters is that you are a good person now. Try to always do the right thing in the present moment. Moment after moment. You can’t make up for what you did in the past. It really shouldn’t matter to you if you are beloved after you are gone.
All you can focus on is doing is the kindness, most giving, right thing this day and this moment.