Life just felt difficult today. Getting out of bed was hard. Showering was hard. Working was hard. Relaxing was hard. Making myself eat food was hard.
It was just all hard/difficult/don’t wanna. I did not want to adult AT ALL. But, I did the adulty things that absolutely had to happen. But, it was H-A-R-D.
I really wanted to just not. Not get out of bed, not shower, not work, not eat. I just wanted to not.
Today was a win because I managed to do all the things that I did not want to do. So, go Julie today.
This past month has felt hard. Not just in my life hard, as in too much to do and too much going on. But life in the world seems hard.
Most the of the Caribbean is devastated. And, I really mean devastated, no housing or food or water. These are some super tough times going on. Politics seems hard, there is so much negativity and hatred. And just general hatred in the world right now. This group hates that group and yet, we are people trying to do the best for our family and friends. Can’t we all just get along? Can’t we see the bigger picture that we are all human and we all deserve decent treatment from everyone?
Perhaps this is part of aging, perhaps not. Life just feels hard, there are so many broken people and systems that there isn’t anywhere to look and say that needs to be fix and going and fixing it. It all needs to be fixed, and no way to know where to start.
I’m not sure what my point is, but am I the only one who feels that life seems awfully hard right now?